Crappy New Year

Ok it's been 2009 here for ten hours, I saw the New Year in by myself at home, watching Transformers and Edward Scissorhands, both cell phones turned off. Everyone else is, as far as I know, off at Vinegar Hill.I'm keeping to myself a lot these days, I don't want to be near anyone. I don't want to have any sort of feelings, I just want to die. I'm nearly 29, I'm fat and ugly, and my twenties have been an utter disaster. I can't even be bothered writing down why I feel like this.I'm just so tired.